It has been a long time since I've written :-/ Lots of things have been going on lately. My day usually consists of wake up, quiet time with the Lord, class, chapel, class, practice, internship. So my days are very packed, and I am daily tested- I am I going to try to make it through by my own strength or His? This definitely determines if the day goes well or not :)
There have been a lot of things on my plate lately which has caused me to be not only physically tired, but mentally and spiritually. I still havent grasped the concept of "giving it to God", but its a slow proccess. This poem I got in my daily devotional email, and it is exactly what I am going through! I know these things: I know the truth, I know God has made me just right, I know He has a plan and purpose for me... so why can't I grasp these things in my mind?
"I Know"
** I know He is the beginning, so why do I worry about the end?
** I know He is the creator, so why do I wonder who will destroy?
** I know He has forgiven me, so why can't I forgive myself?
** I know He is a healer, so why do I speak of sickness?
** I know He can do all things, so why do I say I can't?
** I know He will protect me, so why do I fear?
** I know He will supply all my needs, so why can't I wait?
** I know He is my strength and my salvation, so why do I feel weak?
** I know that everything and everyone has a season, so why when someone's season is over do I weep instead of rejoice?
** I know He is the right way, so why do I go the wrong way?
** I know He is the light, so why do I choose to walk in darkness?
** I know that whatever I ask of GOD, GOD will give me, so why am I scared to ask?
** I know tomorrow is not promised, so why do I put off for tomorrow what I can do today?
** I know that the truth shall make me free, so why do I continue to lie?
** I know He gives us revelation, knowledge and understanding, so why do I lean on my own understanding?
** I know I should live in the spirit as well as walk in the spirit, so why do I choose to live in the spirit but walk in the flesh?
** I know that when praises go up, blessings come down, so why do I refuse to praise Him?
** I know I am saved, so why do I refuse the word He has given me?
** I know He has a plan for me, so why am I rushing it because
** I am eager to do His will, when it is His time not my time?
On a lighter note, we had a winter ball this past Friday (48th floor, Empire Room), and I am pretty sure that it was the funnest dance I've been too. No, I didnt have a date, but the group of people I went with were amazing! There were 4 guys and 5 girls and we just rotated with everyone. The only bummer was the fact that I was taller than all the guys (figures haha) But it was a blast! I am so glad we went!
